So I got my hair done, its ok nothing special. But least it looks healthy 'cept for it needing dying but in two minds whether to have it all black like normal or get the top bit done red. I like blue or pink but thats not an option at the moment lol.
I saw a cat get knocked down today, it really upset me :( But least both sides of the roads cars got out to see if it was ok. I was so horrible, but over fast at least.
Got Mac Hello Kitty makeup I wanted!!
Need to still shift some stuff but just got new Silent Hill so thats distracting me a little when I get time but doing load of hours at work and other jobs too.
I'm going to start selling a lot of my Loli stuff, theres lots of it I simply hardly wear not got the time with it to be honest and I am thinking should I still wear it, make me happy but sometimes... I don't know. Still a lot to go its just taking the photos.
I need a day, or a week off!
Eek! I still need to sort my hair out. I have an issue trusting people with my hair that look really normal... I want something different but not 100% sure what. I wish I knew someone that could help me out, but my friends are useless because they are all boring :(
I really want red but then its supposed to be a nightmare to keep.
I just want something interesting, and a new me... I have turned so boring lately as I rarely get chance to express the real me.
I need a good chance to dress up and a makeover.
Anyone any advice what to do, where to go, or someone want to be my stylist? x
I'm really fed up at the minute, I honestly don't know what I am doing except for destroying myself. I think I need to get up off the floor brush off my knees and start again.
I need to make more time for me, I need to take better care of myself, and I need to discover me because I got lost somewhere.
So number one is get my hair sorted, need a style I want something different and not boring... I wish I knew someone that was talented but wanted to help with my hair because I can't afford loads to get it sorted and I hate most salons as they just don't understand me and just make it look plain and have a fear of cutting it. I think I have an odd face too which doesn't help :(
… ok so everything has basically happened.
I had been well for quite a while and now! *shock*
I have been getting loads of work lately. Mainly Guitar Hero stuff including cooking to death in the arena for the "give it a name" festival babysitting guitar hero pods. But it was great because I met loads of really great people. Including the cutest guy ever! Bands, a great guy called Alex etc etc. Did more Guitar Hero work the weekend before last, was in a really quiet shop so it wasn't so great, but still getting paid to play GH you can't complain too much! Also done a Snooker 888.com thing for a new agency and Nivea thing.
On the other hand cosine work seems to be really winding down to not getting much work again! We were supposed to be starting to get work now (Hello?!)… I don't really know what to do see if I can get more agency work, get another job etc etc… but also considering going to do a college course in makeup still, but the one I was looking at you have to do a stupid beauty therapy course first which doesn't seem to have anything to do with the makeup thing I want to do.
Ages ago but I really enjoyed the Emilie Autumn gig so I am really glad I went to that. Last Tuesday I went to see Robots in Disguise which was great… and it's not long to Download now. But wish I was going to Leeds! Seems a lot better but I couldn't get tickets *sulk*
Went to Recon at Waterstones in Sheffield on Thursday, it was a chance to dress up but it pretty much sucked and the guy that was hosting it was just rubbish and sounded so unenthusiastic. It was no where near as good as the one I went to at M'hell few years back.
I caved in and bought Rockband at the weekend. Was served by the sweetest guy ever… need to get over silly obsession with guys with black hair and lip piecing, because I never meet that sort of person. Also bought GTAIV need to stop spending now! Only sell sell sell!! Need money for Download.
I'm feeling fed up again... maybe its the fact that I am coming down with cold again isn't helping, plus I am tired. I have a lot going on in my head! I should be really happy because some great stuff has happened but still I am not sure. Life can be so confusing and I am too tired to write it all down.
Want to do a proper update later, because loads has happened! keep meaning to put it down but never got round to it. Busy Busy!
Off to Alton Towers tomorrow! a day off *amazement*
will update soon
Not a lot to say really except for I am not feeling too great again and I have work and then the Emilie Autumn gig at the Corp to go to tomorrow. I'm going to take Ruth with me John's sister because she's starting to get in to music and stuff so she should enjoy it!
I have two Gerbils a dark one and a Beige coloured one, but as of yet haven't got names but they should have when I get a bit of time to bond with them. Would have never thought it would be so hard to actually get hold of them.
I survived Sunday and it was no where near as bad as I had expected it to be, was actually ok… would have all been nice to actually go in one car (don't ask!) but you know that's my friends for you. Ended up going to the seaside in the nice wet weather! Lol. Alex went out with me on Monday, we went to Clumber Park and yes it rained again, oh and hailed! But it was fun and got us out for a bit.
Work is still uncertain. Marina is on about moving to tactical :( so I will be core and then we need another branded. Thing is we mainly get work at the weekend which is when you get more work which is a lot better paid then what we are doing. Could have got 4 days doing Nivea job in May but least I have one good paid day doing it. Also I think I am covering Marina's Saturday but Berni never rung me to ask me and I really don't want to do it because it's a late. Not that I actually have any plans on Saturday!
Still no progress on the hair thing, so my mission next week is get it booked and get it over and none with before I go insane… look enough of a mess at the min without my hair looking rubbish too.
I'm in a fed up mood again! I guess it doesn't help with me feeling ill and all but I don't know I am just a little fed up with life and how things are in general… still have something else on my mind but I don't get where my head is with that so I am not going to talk about it at the minute.
Ok time to sleep and think about what to wear tomorrow! Would have been great if I was in the mood *sigh*
Finally it seems like its all going back to normal at work and Marina is coming back, so I know where everything is again and no dropping extra days on me at the last minute. I'm so glad I am working with Marina again.
Had my team meeting out of the way so can progress with project fishbowl… I am sure they can't really mine because after all my hair is under my hat when I work. I do however need to get it cut first. I know what I want and everything its just having the picture and a hairdresser. I wish I just knew someone that did hair it would be a less traumatising experience because I hate having to look in to a mirror for an hour +
I survived my birthday, the day suxed pretty much. I hate birthdays I always feel so unimportant and didn't get presents off my two best friends which is when it get depressing… they didn't know what to get me but anything would have done really. John says he's buying me a gerbil; don't get me started on this one!! I don't know if he really wants me to have one or it was just the easiest thing to do with him not being able to find me a present… I didn't want much just something just to show he cared I guess. My mum and dad got me Enchanted on Blu-Ray and are going to get me something when they go to the states in a few weeks.
I wish I was going with my parents *sigh* I don't want to be on my own for two weeks and I want to go on holiday I am only going to end up going on one holiday this year because I can't find anyone to go on holiday with me because all my friends are boring! I want to go to Hong Kong!! Would love to go back to Japan but I can't find anyone to go with me, would love to go out there for a month with someone it would be so fun.
Also couldn't get Leeds tickets *sulk* maybe I will pick some up on eBay near to the time.
Yeah we are all, yeah all not just me and Fi like I thought going out for my birthday on Sunday. Stay tuned for the full report!
I'm so bored!
Practically living at work at the moment because since Wednesday last week I have been coving all Marina's dems, so this week I am doing 5 days at Sainsbusy's. Wouldn't be so bad if it was the only job I was doing but I am so ready for a day off now, plus I was doing Activision calls over the Easter, and my Sale Leadership *twitch* need a break!
Not sure what is happening over the whole Sainsbury's thing because I think Marina is going to end up leaving, but I guess not going to find out much till next week as she is currently on holiday. I don't want her to leave! I am worried I will end up working with some really horrible person… I have the visions of when I was working at Asda with Linda who hated me for no real reason (one of those, ok to your face kind of people), maybe it was because I was young?!
I hate Warburtons! My dems for them this week were like a nightmare!! Wednesday they don't send any stock in so I am stood there like an idiot promoting something that isn't even for sale and people just think you're stupid. So they rushed yeah rushed! Stock in which didn't turn up till after my dinner at 2.30pm, then I get a phone call from Janice saying you can go home if it's not turned up. Damn it! But if I had known what was going to happen the next day doing the same dem… well I would have pretended it hadn't!! So on Thursday when doing the dem again they sent no more in and I sell out at 1.30pm my punishment for selling everything is I have to stand there again like an idiot till 5.20 I couldn't leave because they wouldn't let me go, I had to stand and promote the brand! Wtf! What's the point in getting the sale?! Sometimes I wonder!!!!!
Still in two minds whether to take off on holiday with my parents in April… Just want to get away! *sigh*
I bought hair day… not going to touch it till I have had my hair done which I am going to try and finally get sorted this week if I can find a picture like I want. Not sure if the dye is a good idea till I have had my team meeting on the 8th. Least at Sainsburys I can kind of cover it with my hat and everywhere else well doesn't really matter!
Yay I update my LJ to rant again! No surprise! … there is plenty more but I am not going to go in to it and start off on another one.